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July 2016

What I Learned From Not Getting The Job

July 19, 2016
 I lowered my head as hot tears flowed down flushed cheeks, thankful for the cover of dark windows in my small sedan.
It had happened once again.
Despite hours of research, interview preparation and years of hard work, I was passed over for a job promotion, my hopes dashed with news of not being chosen.
As a young woman learning to navigate the workforce, the sting of rejection hurt, but something inside stirred a pain greater than just the disappointment of missed opportunity.
It was the ache of feeling left behind, colliding with all my insecurities at once to create an emotional avalanche.
Maybe you can relate?
Sometimes it can seem as though everyone around us is moving forward in natural progression while we’re stuck in time, marching to a slow beat in the rhythm of life.
Perhaps I took it too hard in the heat of the moment, but have you ever noticed that elusive dreams and seasons of waiting are rarely easy struggles to face, no matter where we are in life?
This experience of missing out can be painful, especially when wrapped in the raw emotion of feeling suspended in time, while the world advances around us.
Maybe you’ve experienced the pain of prolonged hardship or a tender wound of past defeat weighing on your heart.
Or maybe the struggle stirs from a series of disappointments that are finally taking their toll.
However it comes packaged, though, sitting in the pain of  a delayed dream is hard. You and I see the ship of opportunity sailing away, with little promise of ever returning again.
But when it seems hope is floating on the wind, could the exact opposite be true instead?
Is there perhaps a greater purpose found in the waiting?
As a young person, the year after my disappointment at work proved to be one of slow, subtle growth. A period of learning rather than the strong forward momentum for which I had hoped.
 So imagine my surprise when an unexpected offer dotted the horizon, filled with the potential of a better opportunity than before.  One I could not have anticipated, and best of all, a role for which I was finally chosen.
As simple as it may sound, not getting the original job promotion became a life lesson, impacting my thought process with a lens to filter future experiences.
Experiences that bring heartache and uncertainty. Those that remind us that life is often lived in the waiting. It’s part of who we are and the forming of who we will become.
We wait for jobs and financial security. We wait for fulfilled needs of the heart and relational hope. We wait for test results and good news. We wait for direction and answered prayers.
 But through it all, do we grow? Is the end result perhaps not as important as the journey in between?
Over the years, I have come to realize God is not bound by the time clock you and I set. I’m also learning that periods of uncertainty aren’t characterized by the absence of His presence, but are an invitation for sweet communion with Him that may not otherwise be possible.
An invitation to trust that He knows best.
God moves in ways we can’t always understand to foster growth and maturity in our lives.  And a closed door today does not dim the light of opportunity for tomorrow when our future rests in His hands.
Each season of life brings unique needs and challenges in a rhythmic ebb and flow. Through it all, it’s my desire to hold steady and trust Him. May I encourage you to do the same?
 Let’s remember, that even when winter seems long, spring is still coming.
The dark, hard road of testing may leave us wondering, hoping and waiting. But don’t lose faith. It may just be the bridge to a greater blessing ahead.
Proverbs 13:12
“Hope deferred maketh the heart sick; But when desire cometh, it is a tree of life.”

 

 

The Solution To An Overwhelmed Soul

July 10, 2016
The fragrant, warm summer evening brushed my senses as I ambled down the driveway, trying to unwind after a long day.
A day filled with the complexities of life pressing my soul.
Health concerns, financial needs and relationship conundrums. They were all there, buzzing around inside, the faint white noise of my mind.
Many questions. But few answers.
In spite of my whirling thoughts though, dusk slowly lured me into the stillness,  smells of freshly mown grass and sweet lemon blossoms a welcome distraction.
Fading rays of sunlight cast a golden glow over the yard and my gaze shifted up to see the neighbor’s silo silhouetted against shadows of a pink and gray sky.
In colorful array, the transition from light to dark showcased a beautiful portrait. One that depicted peace and tranquility. The scene drew me in and I wanted to absorb it. I wanted to tuck the calm into a corner of my heart and let it disband the storms of life.
Maybe you’ve been there too.
Longing for stability when the boat of life rocks to an unsteady rhythm.
Or searching for a slice of serenity on the tide of an ever changing world.
Standing there, on an ordinary weekday evening, facing many circumstances beyond my control, those were my thoughts too, when a verse of scripture niggled the edge of my conscience.
Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you. Not as the world gives, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled. Neither let it be afraid.” John 14:27
A simple call to action.
But not always an easy one.
The truth penetrated my thoughts, because, to be honest, I don’t always walk in the peace that’s afforded me, especially when waves of uncertainty threaten.
How about you?
In the face of real struggles, it’s easy for nervous energy to spark around every corner. And so often, peace takes flight, like a snowbird heading south.
But you know what?
It doesn’t have to.
I continued my walk beneath the glow of a country sunset, pricked by that realization, the voice in my heart a gentle reminder that true peace doesn’t come from the absence of storms. It’s found in the One who calms the troubled sea.
The One who has the answers when you and I do not.
He’s calling us, ever so softly, to shift our focus beyond the darkness and trust Him, desiring that we tuck His solution deep inside when life brings a maze of the unsettled and the unknown.
These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
In a world of uncertainty, true peace is not measured by the size of our problems.It comes from above, defined by the One in whom we place our trust.
And God’s light shines through the tangled web of our trouble with an open invitation.
An invitation to simply lift the burden.
And meet Him in the stillness.
An invitation to find His reflection in the burst of an evening sky or hear His voice on the whisper of a summer breeze.
Without answers. Without solutions. Just in the beauty of knowing He is near. And that He cares.
In time, I believe the answers will come through trusting Him. Meanwhile though,  a beautiful opportunity awaits.
What do you say we respond to the call?

 

Psalm 61:2 “When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I.”
Philippians 4:7 “And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”